to the river's edge...

(published from 'As it is' by Tony Parsons with his permission)

Q: I find that sometimes in formal meditation there seems to be no-one there any more, and there's simply a vast open nothingness which also feels very alive. But when I cease this meditation and come back to my everyday life, that space is not apparent. How do I reconcile these two situations?

A: This presence is available in any situation, and when it's first known it seems to be very intense and powerful. When lights dissipates what seems to be darkness, there's an initial impact which is very recognisable. However, as light becomes more constant and there is less apparent darkness, there comes about an acceptance that this is the natural way to be. As light overtakes the darkness the need to formally meditate becomes less.

Also it's seen that there are periods of natural awakeness and periods of apparent sleep. Once it's accepted that all is the infinite expression, then these different periods simply do not matter anymore. When there's still a need for there to be one and not the other, then full realisation has not happened… and that is also the infinite expression.

Q: You speak of light dissipating darkness as though it's a process in time. Is this a contradiction about there being no process?

A: No process refers to the realisation after awakening that no-one could have achieved it and no process could make it happen. In another way, everything we do and are, could be a process which brings us to the river's edge. Everything is an invitation and there is dance between awakeness and sleep. And it's seen that there is no-one who can do anything about bringing about either of these happenings.

It also seems that light dissipates apparent darkness through a period of what we believe to be time. However, when it is happening it's happening within the timelessness of what is.

- Tony Parsons- , 2000