| Alternating current
If you look down on a river delta from a great height
you see the branches of the water streambecoming ever-smaller.
It is an image that has a strong resemblance for example to the
branches of an artery refining itself into capillaries, a streak
of lightning fanning out in the sky, or the nerves of a tree leaf.
Life is energy. A constant pulse is trying to find
a way for itself. After a natural trajectory the 'material' and
the energy of a manifested thought or happening dissolves back
into the whole
at the end of its circuit. The difference between existing and
not-existing could perhaps be compared to alternating current;
a difference between plus and minus. Perhaps consciousness in capital
letters is something like electricity.
What the meaning of life is? Maybe it is so that
Consciousness, (or God if you like),
can only enjoy it's own Existence by materializing energy.
There is nothing that can be aware of Itself without manifestation.
In manifestation Existence can enjoy Itself. Consciousness celebrates
Itself.
As a person, or as whatever organism, you are first
of all a 'survival-unit'.
You have a need for food in order to survive. The ego function
of the body is very useful for that purpose. One must survive: 'I
have to eat', 'I have to sleep', 'I have
to escape'.
In the meantime, the human being has become so complex that the
I-thought can create problems. 'What is the
sense of my personal existence?' is an important question
for many people.
However, if you analyze this question a little analytically
you could see that the I-thought itself and not the existence originates
the problem, because that actually just happens by itself. No
I-thought
is necessary for the metabolism. Finally, you also continue to
exist peacefully during dreamless sleep, without any notion of
I, without thoughts, either nice or not.
Naturally
that 'I' is very useful, you have to get fitted up
for an 'I' thought if you want to survive. But you
may discover that you are actually All-encompassing, that in which
the entire world appears. That you are actually what precedes the
I-thought. The indivisible Consciousness, called the 'Tao' by
Lao-Tzu within which the entire manifestation and all the I-thoughts
of everyone in the entire world appear. But, you may discover that
you are Omnipresence, that I which the entire world appears, that
which comes before every I-thought, the indivisible consciousness,
which was called 'Tao' by Lao Tzu, in which the entire
manifestation and all the I-thoughts of everyone in the entire
world appear. My I-notion as writer, and your I-notion as reader
take place in a timeless and impersonal Knowing that we cannot
enter or leave.
With thorough investigation, a deep desire to find,
some goal directed help, and a dose of luck this Consciousness
recognizes Itself. In
that moment, the separated I-notion evaporates in the clear recognition
that you are Everything. You discover that your deepest being is
happiness.
Pure existence, unencumbered by bodily discomforts
is bliss. Discovering this makes earthly existence and the unavoidable
discomforts that
belong to it acceptable. Because there is a deep understanding
that this life can only be lived thanks to that body – your
nature or disposition, in spite of the total gene package, your
good and bad sides, your baldness, your corns, and your hernia.
Your deepest being is the Powersource that pressed
together the bundle of with which you can experience presence for
a while. You can
sit beautifully in meditation or visiting a fun fair, it makes
no difference. The presence remains the presence. This immediate
knowing changes the perspective forever. Your life's question
is dissolved in the unbroken stream of spreading energy that plays
untiringly with material in order to enjoy Itself.
[Ruud Houweling, musician] |