Trust never deceives
It is beautiful to trust and to live full of
trust. Trust or mistrust is also a theme in 'spiritual circles'
and we talk about trusting ourselves, our partner, the society
and the world around us. We often experience the mixed
feelings that come with trusting or not trusting. Without trust
we feel fear, but looking at it the other way around we see that
it is exactly fear or reservations that stand in the way of trust.
Osho breaks through the duality that arises
this way with great clarity. He makes it clear that trust is
different from trusting in something. And this trust will never
Letting go of the ego
are saying: When you speak of the need for trust in order to
let go of the ego ... You are saying that I say to you: Trust so
that you can drop the ego! I am not saying that. I am saying that
if you trust, the ego is dropped. It is not like cause and effect
- that your trust will be the cause, and the ego will be dropped
as an effect. I am saying that the moment you trust, the ego is
not there. In trust the ego is not found.
But you are so much concerned with the ego that
you say `Okay. If you say in trust it is not found, I will trust
in order - so that the ego is not found. That 'in order'
you are bringing in!
Please be very careful, because what is being said
to you is immensely significant. Don't change it. Don't interpret
it. Let it be as it is said to you. I am not saying `Trust in order
- so that the ego can be dropped'; otherwise your trust will
be a means and the dropping of the ego will be an end. Naturally,
the end will be in the future, and the means have to be practiced.
You will have to practice for years or for lives, and when you
really have come to gain trust, then you will be able to drop
the ego. No!
Trust is egoless
I am saying `This very moment, if trust is there,
ego is not there!' They don't exist together. It is like the
room is dark and I tell you `Take this lamp'. And you say 'If
I take this lamp into the room, how long will it take for the
darkness to disappear? If I go in the room and practice light
there, how long will it take for the darkness to disappear?'
You need not practice anything. Simply take the light there and
you will not find darkness there. They don't exist together.
What is trust? It is the highest kind of love.
It is the purest love. It is uncontaminated love-uncontaminated
by any desire. If you trust me with a desire, it is not trust.
Then you are using me. If you think by trusting in me you will
attain to nirvana, moksha, the kingdom of God - then you
don't trust me. You are using me: you have made a means of me.
That is not very respectful. If you trust me, this is your
kingdom of God - this trust. There is nothing else; there is
nowhere to go. This is your nirvana. In this very trust, darkness
has disappeared, and the light is burning bright.
B. says: When you speak of the need for
trust in order to let go of ego...
Now he is creating a great problem.
I feel that's where I'm stuck.
You are stuck because of your misunderstanding,
lack of clarity. It is not the ego that is obstructing you; it
is the lack of clarity. It is because you have not been present
to me, it is because you have not been listening to me without
desire. It is not the ego that you are stuck with it is your
unintelligence. Now that will hurt you, because it is okay to
be stuck with ego, but to be stuck with unintelligence? That
will hurt very much. 'Am I unintelligent?' You can accept the
idea that you are an egoist, but to accept the idea that you
are unintelligent is very difficult. Your ego will say 'you
- and unintelligent Bodhiprem? You are the most intelligent
person in the world!' That's what Bodhiprem must be saying right
But be patient try to understand. We are stuck
because of our unintelligence. Call it sleep, call it ignorance,
call it whatsoever you want to call it, but basically it is unintelligence.
An intelligent person... And I don't mean that there are intelligent
persons and there are unintelligent persons. Every unintelligent
person carries the potential of being an intelligent person.
Unintelligence is just the seed that has not broken its shell
yet. Once the shell is broken and the seed starts sprouting,
it becomes intelligence. So unintelligence is not against intelligence;
it is the very womb intelligence arises out of.
Fear stand in the way
But let me tell you that a spade is a spade. Even
if it hurts, one has to understand it. It is unintelligence that
hinders us. Intelligence becomes freedom. You have not understood
me. Out of your unintelligence you are creating desires.
For me distrust is a tangible thing.
It is not distrust, because you have not even known
trust, how can you distrust? Let it be very clear to you. Distrust
is possible only when you have known trust. You have not known
trust, so distrust is impossible. So what is it then? It is a
not trusting - not mistrust and that is a different thing. It
is not-trust. What is the difference?
Not-trust simply means you have never tried trust
so you are afraid, frightened. Everybody is frightened when there
is something new one is going to do, when one enters into an
uncharted sea, or goes into a jungle where there are no more
any maps available, no milestones, and there is every possibility
that you will never come across any other human being that you
can ask where to go and how to find the way.
I have heard... It happened in a jungle. A man,
an explorer, was lost for three days - hungry, almost going crazy,
running from this place to that and reaching nowhere. On the
fourth day, early in the morning, he saw another man sitting
under a tree. He was overjoyed; he forgot all those three days
of suffering when in the night he could not sleep because of
the wild animals, and in the day searching and searching and
there was no way to find out how to get out of this jungle. It
had appeared endless.
Naturally, if you were that explorer you also would
have been overjoyed, you would have become full of joy
at seeing another human being. Now...
He rushed, hugged the man, and said 'I am so happy'
And the man who was sitting under the tree said `For what?'
And this explorer said 'Just seeing you, because
for three days I have been lost.'
And the man said `So what? I have been lost for seven days!'
Now even if you can find a human being - who is
himself lost - what is the point of finding him? Now you will
both be lost together, that's all. Maybe even more lost, because
now there will be two persons continuously conflicting. Up to
now you were alone, at least free to move on your own. Now you
have a marriage partner, now there are going to be more problems,
because he would like to go north and you would like to go south.
And both will create fear in the other. 'Maybe the other is right
and I am going wrong?' And both may create guilt in each other.
It is a natural fear of the unknown that creates
not-trust; it is not distrust. Distrust means that you trusted
and you were cheated; you trusted, and because of your trust
you were deceived. Then comes distrust.
But trust has never cheated anybody, it cannot.
And I am not saying that through trust people cannot cheat you.
Remember, I am saying trust never cheats anybody. Sometimes it
has happened that a disciple has become enlightened because he
trusted the Master, and the Master himself was not enlightened.
This strange thing has been happening down the ages many times.
It happened in a Tibetan mystic's life. He went
to a Master. The Master was a fraud - and frauds exist in the
world of spirituality more than anywhere else, because there
it is very easy to cheat since they deal in invisible things.
You cannot see. They say 'Here is God. Look into my hand.' If
you don't see, they say you don't trust. If you see, they say
' Then, perfectly okay... can't you see?' and you say `Yes, sir.'
And you are not seeing. When you deal in invisible goods it is
very simple to cheat. In the marketplace there are frauds, but
not so many. There cannot be so many there, because they deal
in visible goods. There is some way, some criterion to judge
whether the thing is right or wrong.
But in religion there is no way to judge. So out
of one hundred, ninety-nine per cent are frauds. It is the best
way to cheat people, nothing like it.
This mystic went to the Master, and the Master
was a cheat. But this young man trusted - trusted utterly. He
thought his Master was enlightened, and whatsoever the Master
said, he followed one hundred per cent. It was rumored around
the place that the Master was such a great man that even if you
repeated his name and walked on the water, you could walk. Nobody
had tried it before. And even if somebody had tried, then he
must have sunk. Then there is always the rationalization that
your trust is not entire. So you cannot catch hold of the Master
- 'Your trust is not entire, that's why you sank.'
This young man walked on the water - and really
he walked. And that became his usual thing. When you can walk
on the water, who bothers to go to the bridge or things like
that? People started coming and seeing him, and the other disciples
- particularly the senior ones - became very disturbed. They
tried in secret, but they all sank. So, even the Master was puzzled.
One day, in secret, the Master himself tried thinking that `When
my disciples can walk on the water just by trusting in me, then
what can't I? I can do anything! I am the greatest Master in
the world; my disciples are walking on water. Jesus used to walk
on water and my disciples are walking on water, so I must be
greater than Jesus!'
So he went, in secret of course, because he was
afraid. He had never tried - 'Who knows?' And he knew perfectly
well that he was a fraud. The disciple had deep trust in him,
but he had no trust in himself. How could he have any trust?
He knew perfectly well that he went on deceiving people. He walked
Then he called the
young man and said `How do you do it?'
He said `I simply say
your name - 'Master, I want to go to the other side' and you
take me. And recently I have started flying from one peak of
the mountain to the other, because I said 'When it is possible
on water, why not in air?' So one day I tried and said 'Master,
take me from this side to the other side' and you took me. Now
I can do anything. Just your name...
The Master had to fall at his feet. And he said
`You initiate me; you know the secret. I am an ordinary
man, and last night I tried walking, and I sank.'
It has happened many times, because it is not
really a question of whether the man you trust is cheating you
or not, the question is that trust never cheats. You cannot be
cheated because of your trust. If the trust is infinite you are
impossible to cheat. Nobody can cheat you. Your trust will protect
you. Your trust will become your very experience. Your trust
will become your boat. Your trust will take you to the other
shore. But remember, what you have is not distrust. You can't
have distrust; you have never trusted. Distrust can come only
as an experience that trust failed. But trust never fails, so
distrust is just a word; not-trust is true.
You have never tried, so only just a little courage
is needed to try. Give it a try. Be a little courageous. Slowly,
slowly go beyond the limitations that you have created around
yourself - step by step. And the more you go beyond the barriers
that you have created around yourself, the bigger you become,
more expanse comes to your consciousness. Then you will see that
you can go as far as you want, because every move beyond the
limitation brings more joy, more freedom, more being.
See what there is
It is not distrust; it is only fear that is tangible.
It feels painful, but I can't let go of
There is no need to let go of it. Meditate on it
see exactly what it is. We go on giving names to things that
we have not even watched correctly. And once you give a wrong
name you will be in a trap. The wrong name will never allow you
to see the thing as it is. Don't be in a hurry to name a thing
and categorize a thing and pigeonhole a thing. There is no need.
Just watch what it is. If you watch you will find it is not-trust,
not distrust. If you watch you will find it is simply a lack
of courage - fear, not distrust and `tangible', no.
Then things will be different. When you know it
is fear, when the disease is known rightly, a right medicine
is possible. When you go on calling your TB `cancer', then you
go on treating cancer and the TB is never treated. Diagnosis
is far more important than medication. And this is the problem:
people don't worry about diagnosis and they are simply ready
to jump upon any medicine. They are ready to take any medicine
without bothering at all what their disease exactly is. And that
is ninety per cent of the problem; medicine is only ten per cent.
Diagnosis is needed, and that's why a Master can be helpful -
to diagnose things.
Absence of trust
I would like to remind you that it is not-trust
not distrust, that it is fear and, in a way, natural. It exists
in everybody. So don't start feeling yourself a coward; it is
natural. The fear of the unknown exists in everybody. And one
has to go slowly, slowly beyond the known - just a few steps
so that if it becomes too much you can come back. But once you
have started going...
Taken from: Osho - But I say onto you Transformation
in the words of Jesus
© Rajneesh Foundation in 1980